Letting Go of 2011
New Years Eve 2011
Lots of learning happened in 2011. We lost the election, but began occupying the state. I moved from Chicago to Los Angeles to Charlotte in a matter of weeks and accepted my dream job. I did grown up things like find a long term apartment, buy a car, make new friends and get promoted at work. Perhaps the most raw, I immersed myself in a love story, with eyes and arms and heart wide open. I let love back into myself completely, and communicated clear boundaries that I created. That line was crossed, and now I am letting it go.
As cliche as it may read, I learned that I will never be able to love him enough or support him enough for him to change. He will only change if he wants to, and that it actually has nothing to do with me. That I am responsible for communicating my needs, my wants, my desires–and most importantly being true to them.
Goodbye 2011. Thank you for all of the growth and discomfort and challenge. One step forward in learning how to let it all go.
